Autumn

Okay, so time is going WAY too fast. I am only 30 years old, at least for another month, and I really feel that things should not be moving at the rate they are.

Today was a really amazing day in the North of New Zealand. It was one of those perfect early autumn days, where the air is still warm, but the air is really clear, and the leaves are starting to turn, and there are acorns everywhere (this place is called Oak Ridge for a reason), and there are apples on the apple tree, and it just feels all cozy and nostalgic. I said goodbye to most of the rest of the staff, who are headed off to a YWAM NZ meeting for a few days. That was sad, and so I was definitely down with the nostalgia in the air after being left here for my last couple of days pretty much alone.

My house is still a shambles, but I'm thinking I will finish packing and cleaning tomorrow, and be ready to hop on a bus to the airport by Thursday. I hate packing and cleaning. I may have mentioned this before. But I especially hate it this time, because I'm actually moving out of this house, which I love, and moving on to what feels pretty unknown a lot of the time. Secretly I am terrified. (I guess it's not a secret any more!). But I know I need to go-- I know that God is up to something and I want to be a part of it. Not that he's not up to something here, too... it's just not for me right now. Hopefully I will be able to come back here after Guam; I definitely don't feel finished here yet.

I've been spending the last week or so helping with staff training for the next DTS here, as well as trying to plan out staff training for my Guam DTS and trying to get my head around schedules and speakers and stuff. A friend of mine in Guam has found a car for me to use while I'm there, which is an unexpected blessing. Although, I did pray a lot for a car while I was there, so I maybe shouldn't be surprised. But I am VERY grateful. And I'm grateful for my time here, and for this house while I've had it, and for the people who have made my life richer while they've been in it. I think God's been reminding me, even while I am sad to say goodbye to people and places that I love, that he gave me all of that. Instead of being sad that I don't have it anymore, I want to be thankful that I had it in the first place. And look forward to whatever is coming... which is coming quickly!!!

On that note, I have to go enjoy my last NZ full moon for a while. It's unbelievable how bright that thing is!