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Bwah! How does a week go by so quickly?!!!!

So I spent all of last week in Auckland driving the DTS around while they were staying there. It was nice to be in the city, but frustrating to be a driver who knew just enough to be an accidental middle-man (middle-woman!) sometimes between the DTS students and staff. Luckily I had my friend Daniel to hang out with and also to run away with sometimes. Also, I got to sit in on lectures with Winkie Pratney, which I really was excited for. They were really great and refreshing-- he was talking about the character and nature of God and how that is reflected in art and how it could be reflected in art in the future, and it was cool stuff. So. There you go.

I also found out last week that coming back into New Zealand after my time in Scotland and at home is going to be more complicated than I had thought and hoped. Which, of course, has got my mind going a mile a minute. What can I do to get back here? What SHOULD I do? Is God wanting me to be finished here? Is God even telling me something or is this a choose-your-own-adventure kind of situation? What if I'm missing something? AAAAAHHHHH!!!!

All that panic is well and good, but actually not super helpful. So for now, I am trying to breathe deeply and enjoy my time here, and serve the best I know how to, and wait for the next bit of direction. Oy. This morning, I was still kind of freaking out on the inside (don't worry-- on the outside, I am the epitome of calm, cool, and collected), and read my Bible verses for the day as prescribed by my Celtic daily prayer book. They were all good verses, and actually had quite a bit to do with direction and trusting God for specific situations. But what really spoke to me was the last one, I think because it reminded me to just do what I know to do right now. To follow God and be faithful, and not freak out. I get so easily caught up in doing the right thing that I often forget that my character-- who I am choosing to BE-- counts. So here's Colossians 3:12-15 (ish) from the Message:

"So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it. Let the peace of Christ keep you in tune with each other, in step with each other. None of this going off and doing your own thing. And cultivate thankfulness."

So... I have a long way to go. But somehow, it's good. I have peace, again, and unreasonably. And now I'm going to sleep.